Back to reality..

Today is officially the first day of work.. Back to reality.. Learning to say goodbye will always and has never been an easy thing.. Though it sounds ridiculous to many but for me to say "bye bye" to my girl is really difficult.. I feel guilty leaving her at home to the care of my helper when this should be my job.. I will probably no longer witness her first steps, first word and many other firsts.. But in order to live more comfortably and bring the dough back, I must learn to let go..I tell myself that it will only take just another 1 year, then all will be better.. I believe many mummies out there experience the same feelings as me.. I pray that my girl will still recognise and want me each time I come back from my long flights..