BUSY BUSY BUSY

Its been such a long while since I last posted..
I have been so darn busy with the Princess's birthday bash and the guest list just keeps growing!!!! I seem to have invited the whole of Singapore!! Gosh...

So much have happen for this whole week..
Hubby has finally confirmed his posting to China.. He will be leaving us in August..
Initially I took it quite well, but as the date gets nearer, I am feeling pretty reluctant.. I worry about my little Princess, who will not be seeing her daddy in her most important stage of life as we decided that it is a wiser choice to join him later when he is more settled in China.. I worry that she has to be left in the house without her Daddy and Mummy when I am away for long flights.. I worry about her safety, her learning skills and almost everything...
I get so upset just thinking that neither of us am unable to put her to bed at night.. Neither of us is there to read her a bedtime story, sing her a lullaby... And so much much more..
Is this a good choice? Is there a better alternative?
In life, there are so many struggles that man has to go through, but thinking that I put my little one to learn independence at such a young age is just so terrible..
But do I have a choice? Daddy has to go, for the sake of our future, to provide us with a more comfortable life.. Mummy has to "ren" and go to work for another year so as to finish the 10 years contract with the company..
The only thing that I hope for right now is that the whole family can quickly adapt to this BIG change in our life.. And that I am able to take it well..

I now learn to treasure my family more than anything.. just the other day, I receive and read an email which I find it so true...
When we bump into someone, We immediately apologise.. When we accidentally step onto a stranger on the street, we apologise too.. But when those incidents happen to any of your family member, we just brush it off or sometimes we might even scream st the other party "WA LAO!! BLIND AH!!"
Sounds familiar??!! Just because they are our family members, we often take them for granted.. We never bother to apologize to our loved ones for the mistakes that we make.. We just take for granted that it's their fault and forget about their feelings..
As I write this, I feel so guilty.. For screaming at my husband's concerns for me as I always find them naggy.. For not apologizing to my loved ones, for the mistakes that I make and being so prideful..
I promise to try to be a better person and a better mom..

I have also been real busy with the scrapbook that I am making for my Princess's birthday..
It will be a month by month progress and picture book of her for the past year..
It's a real last min project!!!

I have also manage to set up her slide.. AND the Princess LOOOOOVVVVEEESSSS them... will put on pics of her playing with it soon!!!