Many thoughts run through my mind tonight as I held the Princess in my arms.. Suddenly I felt really upset as hubby was not at home with us tonight.. We had just sent him to the airport in the afternoon where he had gone to Indonesia for a business trip..

I just felt really lonely.. I really miss him..

I realise I am not that independent after all.. As the date gets closer for his overseas posting, I get more and more cranky each and every day.. Knowing that days like these would soon be here just make me all choked up..
Despite me always saying that if he were to be unfaithful to me, I would not give a damn.. In actual fact, I would be so heart broken.. My world would pretty much collapse I believe..

God created both man and woman for a reason. Like he created left and right.. It just would not feel right without the other..

But We both know that he just have to go.. For a better future ahead.. I wonder if I would get use to not hearing his nagging, his silliness, his "smell", his "leg scratching", his long long hours on the toilet seat and every other single thing..
I also hate the fact that he would be missing out so much on his little girl's growing up milestones.. She calls him "PaPa" so loud and clear.. It melts my heart every time she does that..

Every day, hour, mins and seconds spent with the little one is such a heart warming experience..
I hate going to work now.. I hate leaving her.. I simply cherish and love all the time I being together with her..

I realise how precious it is to be able to spent time together as a family.. No amount of money can buy this kind of feeling..

Just thoughts and feelings..