Celebrating Daddy's birthday..

Though darling hubby's birthday is still another 4 days away, we celebrated earlier cos he is already back to work in China.

The week that he was in town, was a really emotional one. Being away for 10 months now, really made us wondered if hubby leaving for China was a right decision.

He hated to leave us here in Singapore and I hated that he was there. But we just had to do it because it seemed like the right move for the future ahead.

We are really struggling with our contradictions.

I really pray that God will have an answer for us.

Anyway hubby's birthday was a simple but heart warming one.


We had Korean BBQ. Have been wanting to eat this long long ago...

Jennifer with Siti..

Daddy feeding Mummy!!! Because mummy was busy feeding Baby!!!

Birthday cake with compliments from Jennifer.. Princess really love birthdays!!

"Mummy wishes that GOD will bless hubby with good health, success in his career, and to always be blessed by GOD."

Last day at Shichida

We decided not to continue with the school not because we are moving to China but I am really feeling that the standards of the school is really bad. They seem to have double standards in their lessons and the teachers look really inexperienced.

Anyway I am having a tough time with getting my girl to classes now so until I get a ground job, girl will have to stop classes.

Poor Princess, cos I know she really enjoys going to school.

SOooooo Many Pics to PoST!!!!!

Leia turns 2 on 29th June 2008!!


The Princess chose this Barney design cake . She loves it!!

She just couldn't take her eyes off the cake.

Family.

With "shu shu"... He looks like Darlie!!!! HaHa..

She really loved the cake and it taste good!! From Prima Deli..

"Mummy and Daddy wishes our Princess to be blessed with good health and to always be a happy child."

As i was taking pictures of Pier 39 just now, I realised these pictures in my memory card were still not being uploaded in my laptop.

This was taken on the day before, we were going to hand over to the buyer who had bought our car.

I still love this car though it was not our first car but it was the Princess's first.
I drove this car when I was pregnant and till Leia was just slightly over 1.

We had to sell it because hubby was moving over to Shanghai and I am also constantly not in town so there was no need for a car.

This car also brings back fond memories and until now when Princess sees the same kind of car on the road, she will say "PaPa ... car"

Counting from 1 - 10

She loves to count from 1 -10 and she is now learning to count till 20. Therefore this video is a little outdated.

Threading

Bought this threading toy cos it looks cute and though not that "fun", it seems to me that the little one is picking up a skill from it. She looks really serious and focussed. I think she finds it interesting too.

At Work

Just touched down from Narita to New York. I thought that would be my second last flight!! Heehee..

San Francisco

I am once again back to this lovely city which brings me back fond memories.

Its really hot and warm here this summer. I guess its the effects of global warming. I have never experienced such heat in San Francisco.

Yesterday I had the urge to visit Napa Valley and "chio" my girls but 2 were going for the city tour and 1 "you xin wu li".
Hahaha.. Anyway I gave up the idea and felt that I will go next month instead cos my team girls are flying with me so they would probably be interested in joining me.
And I will definitely be more prepared so I can bring my camera to fire up with pictures!!

I am feeling better these 2 days. I am still weak but my mood has lighten up a little.
I really hope I get out of this shit soon.

Back to feeling the heat here. I decided that I am going to be more of a "recycling" person. It may sound crappy to some people but I think humans really ought to learn and be taught how to love the world.

There have been so much talk and emphasis on global warming but humans just don't get it.

This generation are just starting to feel it and being educated, shouldn't we humans do something about it and stop feigning ignorance.

My Princess is the generation that will suffer. Your children and their children will suffer!!!!

I will learn to recycle and reuse.

This will be one of my goal for now.

Its decided...

"Globetrotters" will be the venue for the Princess 2 year old party this year.

Wanted to hold a small celebration this year because her one year old party was too overwhelming and it really tired us out.

So this year will just be a cosy one with close friends.

Looking forward to it :)

Pics at the museum

Princess's first concert!

Barney was finally here and Princess enjoyed the show very much.

I was glad that we bought her the front seats. She was dancing and enjoying herself while Barney came alive!!

Whats happening?

Have u ever felt that life is such a joke?

Actually I dun even know why I am typing this to start a post.


I just feel very unhappy nowadays. Nothing seems to make me laugh.


I smile for my pretty Princess everyday but there is no joy and happiness in me.


But I am grateful to God that he watches over my girl everyday.


I really dun know what is exactly happening to me. I flare up easily and I dun wish to talk much about things because when I do, I always end up feeling more terrible and pissed each time.


I feel that talk is cheap. I really wanna get out of this CRAP!!!!!!!


What the hell is happening to me????????????


Am I turning into some kind of sadist??!!


I think I am falling into....




Depression....

Museum again

Brought the little one to the museum today again but today we were only there for a short while cos we had arrive there pretty late.

Marcus, my godson, together with his daddy and mummy joined us today.

But Marcus was sleeping when he reached there, so he din really get to walk around the museum too much.

As before, Princess enjoyed herself very much.

And soon, we headed down to Plaza Singapura for dinner.

We also paid Tricia a visit at KK today, right after dinner.
Poor Tricia had to be admitted into the hospital as she caught fits in the afternoon.

This experience triggered many thoughts for me. I wonder what will happen if Princess was the one who caught fits and if this were to happen when I was not around.

Like any normal day, Princess is now left alone under the care of my 2 Indonesian helpers when both me and my mother-in-law is working.
Would the 2 helpers know what to do?
What would happen to my Princess?

Yesterday I so happen to reprimand 1 of my helper because she had given Ginger wrong dosages of medication. And I had specifically paid special attention by writing down the dates of the days when Ginger needs to be fed. Still she made a mistake, feeding her everyday instead of every other day.

I am highly suspicious that we have a communication problem.

I am slowly losing trust in them.

They are also part of the reasons for my unhappiness in the past few months.
They fed Princess with expired medication when I was not around. This triggered me to be more detailed in my explanation to them with medication.

But it seems that, still it does not work.

Therefore my last resort, is praying.

I pray to GOD that he look afters my child's well being.
And that if something must happen, please at the very least, happen only when I am around.

In the meantime, I will do my utmost in enhancing my communication with my helpers too.

A Great Achievement

My Princess knows how to use the potty!!!!!

MUMMY is so proud of u sweets!

Have you ever felt that out of the 365 days in a year, almost 300 days are dreadful days which you wish you never wanna wake up to.

I think for the past 6 months has been the worst days of my life..

I am not joking.. I have hit rock bottom..

I need GOD very very badly.

My Princess is the only reason I am living for right now.

I admit that I did think of letting my journey come to a complete stop..

Loved ones that are reading my blog now must be worried and terrified. But fear not, cos I am still well and alive because I believe there will be miracles and that GOD is with me.

A friend reminded me that our child is solely ours and nobody else in this world, sad to say, can replace a mother's undying love for her children.

It is very contradicting to me after what I have been through for the past few months.
I DO NOT AGREE TOTALLY..

But there is one thing for sure is that my love for my Princess is undying.

Therefore I will continue to battle the hardships and pain in life.
And fend for my child till the day she is independent, till the day when I know she has learnt to walk the journey of love.

Cat Painting

My Princess did another paint job today and it turned out real pretty..

She is such a big lover of animals and even though I am pretty afraid of cats, I do not implant my fear to her.
And it seems she really likes cats alot cos when I asked her what alphabet does cat starts with,
she said : C!!!!!

I was really surprised!

Because this is the first time I ask her about alphabets and she got it right.

Gosh!

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In love with sliding!!